Boys. A post in honor of missing them.

Leaving the Lights on

So, my sweet Andy is a sentimental man. He saged our house and the cars today with a prayer tie he made at sweat a month or two ago. He just knew it was needed, it was time. He put rescue remedy on my heel today when I was lying in bed a tad overwhelmed with everything.

My thoughts are swirling. Am I capable? Am I a whole freaking crapload better than capable? Of course not. But probably. Yes I am. Balance.

My sweet Andy usually shuts off all outdoor lights at night. Don't want to bother our ONE neighbor. It could shine in a window and keep them from sweet slumber. But, we've asked, and it doesn't. Never-the-less, the outdoor lights are not left on unless Andy is away (when all windows and doors are secured, and outdoor lights are most certainly on). UNTIL RECENTLY. Now, we leave our porch lights on. They are a strand of lights, some would call holiday lights, we refer to them as whimsy; and we leave them on, day and night on our porch, because Andy says they will help Tirfe find her way home. They are a beacon, a message, a sign, that we are alert, so aware and calling her precious soul to us. We are leaving a light on. It wasn't my idea, nothing to do with me. Intriguing, so I asked, and that was the answer I recieved: They are for Tirfe. Gentle smile, of course... I know.

Tomorrow we will leave the boys, the precious...amazing...beautiful boys, and head to Ethiopia to bring our precious, amazing, beautiful daughter home. Holy F. This is so amazing. So SO SO SO SO SO Amazing. Good god, I am meeting my daughter finally, finally, FINALLY. Girl, you are so loved. As YOU are. Who you are. Teach us about you, we are so ready to learn. Tirfe, I am absolutely sure Daddy will never turn those lights out again.

May you always know the truth and see the light surrounding you.

on borrowed time

WE LEAVE FOR ETHIOPIA ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!

Because I only have one child here right now and he is sleeping, this is going to be a to the point post of what we are up to right now. I really need a nap too. We all have colds and have been running around like crazy (good crazy, but still crazy!) for the last week.

Wednesday we got confirmation of our travel date. We were planning to leave on the 1st, but while we were waiting for our confirmation, tickets went up nearly a thousand dollars a piece for that day! So we looked at some other options and ended up buying tickets to leave on Monday the 29th instead. Five days from the day we purchased them. Yikes!!

We are trying to get everything together, write wills (last minute I know), reschedule Andy's patients, get all of our paperwork together, set the boys up for while we are gone (Nana is coming to our house to watch them!!), book a hotel for Tuesday and Wednesday in ET (no luck getting through yet), do last minute shopping ($$$ yikes), get the neighbor to take care of our dogs and cat for 10 days (a nana can only take so much!), love up the boys and soak up our time with them, download pictures and charge cameras, remember our passports and tickets, and partake in all the joy of Andy's sister's wedding on Saturday. The boys are all in the wedding, they got their tuxes yesterday. The rehersal and grooms dinner were last night. We also really, really need to mow the lawn and teach Nana how to care for Andy's saltwater fish tank.

It is good to be so busy, it keeps my mind off the plane ride, until the middle of the night when I roll over and my brain starts going at a million miles an hour. I don't like to fly. At all. But I can't wait to get on that plane and get there. I can't wait to embrace Africa, Ethiopia, our daughter. I am in shock that we are actually getting ready to meet her for real, and bring her home. Shock. I won't believe it until we are home. It is so surreal. Amazing. Heartbreaking and beautiful. Tirfe, you ARE abundance.

Wish us well and send mojo to me for peace on the flight, it would mean a lot to me. :)

Off to nap. Aesa, please keep those beautiful eyes closed for just another hour or so.

Tentative Travel Date

Yikes, Eeek, holy schmoly, what's that?, huh, oh me oh my....

We have a tentative travel date of July 2nd. We are waiting on T's embassy medical to be completed before it becomes a confirmed date, but we actually got to call a travel agent to put tickets on hold! Yahoo!

I can't even begin to think about everything that we need to do, check, and recheck before we get on the plane, so I thought blogging would be good enough for today. Our weeks until then are extremely busy with my dad and my mother in law celebrating their birthdays yesterday, a concert this friday night (Refugee Allstars- I am so excited!) the Mehaber on Saturday (I am on the committee this year), Father's Day for my husband and our fathers' on Sunday, and my sister-in-law's wedding next Saturday which Andy and the boys are all in. Ummm, then we could be leaving 4 days after the wedding. I love the it. Things will fall into place with some help from the Nana (we love you nana!!) Yikes. Joyous, joyous, frantic preparation. We also start swimming lessons and tumbling this week and Arlo has camp at the University every night next week. I wonder what I am going to forget. For today, I will make list after list of lists I need to make.

We really are SO close. Two weeks and counting. Yippee!

on my mind

Certain lyrics pop to the front the mind at moments when they are opportune... Here's where I'm at right now...thanks bob.

Corrina, Corrina,Gal, where you been so long?

Corrina, Corrina,Gal, where you been so long?

I been worr'in' 'bout you, baby,Baby, please come home.
I got a bird that whistles,I got a bird that sings.

I got a bird that whistles,I got a bird that sings.

But I ain' a-got Corrina,Life don't mean a thing.
Corrina, Corrina,Gal, you're on my mind.

Corrina, Corrina,Gal, you're on my mind.

I'm a-thinkin' 'bout you, baby,I just can't keep from crying.

No, her name is not Corrina (although that was a top contender for Aesa, were he a she) but, you get the jist. I love this girl. She is on my mind. I can't wait to show her the whistling and singing awaiting her here in our home. I can't wait to show her the love of her big brothers', they have plans for you little lady, fun, fun, fun.

I am thinking about you baby. You've been on my mind. I keep thinking about you baby. Baby, please come home.

xoxo, Mom (and Dad- who claims he gets to pick out your outfit the first day we meet. His eyes can't keep from cryin'.)

T-day!! We Passed Court!

We are one BIG step closer to bringing our little lady home. I am in shock. We are hers and she is ours! This is a day to celebrate. I can finally, finally unleash all the love that I have tried to temper over the past few months. No more 'what ifs' for me. I am so happy for her, and also so happy for us. I can barely take her cuteness. She is about 4 months in these pictures, but she is almost 7 now. I can't wait to see how she has changed! Thanks for all the good wishes, it must have been some serious mojo!!

We love you T!

six days

Until our court date. In six days we hope to legally be in the place we have emotionally been for months. Six more days. Send us your mojo.

xo. Sara