Head Over Heels, and 'Round and 'Round Again

I am not thinking coherently. I am not thinking anything except the same few things over and over and over. I am not a steller Mom or Wife this week, my mind is thousands of miles from here and also traveling deep within my soul.

I have been thrown for a loop, willingly loving the stomache turning emotions of butterflies and joy and embracing the grief and loss.

You see this week we met our daughter. She is perfect. She is waiting; in Addis for us. She is 4 months of pure perfection. Her cheeks and little mouth could stop traffic. I am sure her giggles are noticed in the heavens. She is ours, we are hers, together for the rest of our journey as a family. The boys are stoked, "Our baby sister" with smiles.

The moment I saw her my soul said, "See. You have known her all along." I have faith in my soul, in things I can't explain that seem by chance, but are for certain a part of a plan bigger than I can comprehend. Come with me daughter, take my hand, let's work on this together. Thank you for blessing me with you. Thank you for trusting me, I will always do my best, and always be willing to learn.

Oh girlie, my girlie, I Love You (and Daddy does too.)

Sending the most powerful of maternal mojo over land and ocean to your side. Feel our love. We are coming to you.